Lost what i did not have

misunderstood, misinterpreted, mistaken
miss everything, everything that's been taken
tried so hard, so hard to be perfect
got nothing at all, not even respect

miss you a lot, more than you think
but am nowhere, not even at the brink
might not seem so, but the intentions were pure
didn't have you anyway, but lost you for sure

searched a lot, looked everywhere to find
that missing piece, peace of mind
don't know what's better, my day or my dreams
cause in the end, nothing's as it seems

you are here, but you are gone
is this the place where i belong
was always true, could not come through
might only have to live with the memories of you

should have been wiser, or should have been a fool
should have been the schemer, or should have been a tool
should have been better, or should have been worse
should not have been someone, with nothing but a verse

every breath, every glance, every time, every chance
calling out, reaching out, finding out, shut out
shaken, broken, forsaken, heartbroken
wanted everything, can't even have a token

why is it so easy, for all but me
why is it never what i want it to be
try to move mountains, keep stumbling on stones
dazed and confused, left all alone

two steps forward, four steps back
always keep running, on the wrong track
looking or some hope, looking for a chance
too far away, even from a bad romance